The Private Public person

So i recently had a photo shoot and this time it was done right outside my house. needless to say, my fear became a reality. ok here is the thing about me. im very private person, so much that until recently, very few people in my hood knew about my other life, you know, my music life. Lol, i know its weird that i refer to it as my other life but it basically feels like it is. i mean im a student at UJ to most people. most people think im that girl whose gonna get a degree, get a good job, buy a car and a house and get married. but very little people know that i live music, i go to shows sometimes with very little money and crash as the oddest places, have weird pot head friends, lol, and sometimes am myself, probably wont get a fancy car anytime soon and that i hate school and everything it represents.(a story for another day).

But with music growing, im forced to push my self and market myself EVERYWHERE. my hood, my home and m school are the places are spend most of my days. i want to feel comfortable and free in those places. my fear has been that if people know about my music life, they will look at me differently, you know. about 2months ago, there was an article on a newspaper dailysun and my picture was put there. people from my hood obviously saw that. and every time i went out to the shop or something people would comment on it or shout from across the street. as cool as that my sound, i found my self dreading to go out. coz i had lost the comfort of walking about freely without people looking and pointing at me. the same goes with the photo shoot. people came out to see what was going on, watching, making comments listening to when i was singing in the MIDDLE OF THE STREET NOGAL. later that day, ppl would stop me to ask about it or others would just point out at me and say what ever to each other. again i felt like i was being stripped in my own comfort zone. for as long as i can remember i have never enjoyed having a large amount of attention on me. Ive learnt to deal with it on stage, coz i enjoyed it there, but im yet to deal with it in my own hometown. or maybe I'm making a big deal out of nothing..mmmm:/

anyway here are some of the photos from the shoot.